As I stood there in our kitchen cursing at the butter because I could not beat it into submission so I could cut cute little leaf shapes into it, I really began to hate Thanksgiving.
I had spent the morning ironing (which I absolutely hate doing) the tablecloth and napkins, hand washing our good china so we could use it for the first time, surfing the Internet on how to "un-tarnish" my grandmother's silverware and trying to explain to a very zealous cat that cutlery is not for kittens.
Everything was going well, until I could not get those leaf shapes into the butter. It was at this point I knew I had given into the "holiday perfection demon."
This demon (who in my mind looks a little like the Weight Watcher's Hungry Monster but a little more evil) always pays me a visit at this time of year. He likes to remind me that everything needs to be absolutely perfect. That because it is a holiday, things need to be more special.
This is the same creature that can reduce me into a melting mass of emotion because I cannot make the perfect bow for our Christmas wreath. It is also the same being that drives me to find the perfect gift, have it be on sale and wrapped perfect with sharp, crisp edges.
But, as I stood there with the butter-covered rolling pin in my hand, instead of smashing the butter, I decided to smash away my holiday demon.
So what if there is one little wrinkle in the tablecloth? So what if we have to eat butter off of one of our everyday dishes that do not match our china? So what if there is one little speck of tarnish at the base of a piece of the silverware?
Once I had shipped off my holiday menace, something happened: I really started to see the real meaning behind Thanksgiving.
I know it is so cliche and sounds like an after school or Charlie Brown television special but it is true.
There are so many times that I look at my faults and what I do not have, that I miss all that I am truly blessed to have.
So in the spirit of the holiday, I have decided to make a "Thankful List" (in no particular order).
* I am thankful for my family and friends who continue to support and love me.
*I am thankful for my wonderful husband who has been by my side for 10 years.
* I am thankful for having God in my life. I know there are bad times, but there will also be good times and He will not give me anything I cannot handle.
*I am thankful for my freedom. This is becoming more and more of a thing to be thankful for considering the state of the world today.
*I am thankful to have a roof over my head, food on the table and clothes in my closet. Everyday I take for granted the most simple and basic needs that are met each day.
* I am thankful for our two cats. They have provided us with so much joy and happiness, with just a touch of anxiety to keep things interesting.
I don't want to get "preachy" but this Thanksgiving, instead of fighting over the turkey drumstick, or complaining about your grandmother asking you when you are going to get married or have a baby, just take a deep breath and count your blessings.
I wish you and your family a very Happy Thanksgiving full of good food, fellowship and many fond memories.